Thank you Raveena41 , Sunitapune , Bianca for your concern for me and for the guidance and hope that you give me.
Many updates over the last 10 days. Wife and I going through a very rough phase. She needs space and so, I have moved out of our house. She will take time to heal from the heart break and the least I can do is to give her that time.
I am really torn between choosing to transition and saving my family. Coz as things look now, I can't have both. Should I embark on my personal sojourn and lose my family in doing so or should I sacrifice my inner self to save the family. As much as I have read the experience of many trans persons, this sacrifice only ends up being another episode of postponement of the problem which surfaces again in future.
On other fronts, I came out to my other significant family members and they were very supportive and encouraged me to follow my heart. Also, I had my psychiatry appointment and I think I'll get my GD certificate in another visit. Also, we will have a couple counselling session hopefully next week.
Overall, some positives mixed with some major negatives. Not sure whether I am happy or sad right now. I have just gone emotionless.
