Confuseddesi Wow! Calm down! Hold your horses!
While I understand your emotions, I must suggest you to seriously consider your thoughts. SRS is the last step needed to complete your transition. First, you need a doctor to identify your issue. Many times thinking of become a woman is not necessarily being born in the wrong body. One may want to cross dress only for sexual purposes but not otherwise. So you need proper physiological evaluation. Then, as per the new law on transgenders, you need to proceed further.
While I am not against your thought process, what you are thinking right now is more like eating a cake which you don't even know how to bake. Request you to please consult a good psychologist in your area to identity your issue. You worries are very relevant. Please go see a doctor.
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Avantika