@Sophia First of all, I would like to show a lot of respect to you for speaking about it and also educating others who are not aware of it. I also agree with people considering "trans women are male perverts" as @Apurva mentioned.
So Identify myself as a trans-woman, and I'm attracted to men, so I clearly cannot every relate to your feelings at the same time, it does not mean that your feelings or your womanhood are not valid. It is a subject that has been least talked about and which needs to be understood especially in The trans community. In my little bit of understanding what I believe is that you are a Lesbian Trans-woman, and you are not alone since I know many of the individuals like you. Who devour pleasure by looking themselves in the mirror (Heartily apologize if I'm offending your sentiments but these are the cases I've run into). For example like Caitlyn Jenner, has so many kids and she was very much sexually satisfied but however the fact that she is a woman never left her alone and finally, better late than never she came out and happily living as a proud lesbian transwoman. You should also watch my favorite, Emmy winning show 'Transparent' that showcases a similar story. I think that trans women in general need to be accepting of all trans women even if we cannot fully relate to each other.
I think it is a case that even psychiatrists are not very well aware and even sensitized about these things, as @Anita says "i have heard stories about him not giving to people and making them realize they were in fact trying to transition for love and relationship reasons..." I don't fully find this to be fair because I don't think people will go to the extent of changing their gender just because those reasons, that means every cigender gay or lesbian person might think of doing the same. I think those people are misunderstood, I think their feelings matter and are valid but so many individuals who are trans lesbians actually do act inappropriately which leads all of us to think that there are some transwomen who are not real and they're just male perverts.
Anyways, I believe you should maybe do more research about trans-women who are lesbian and wh are leading a very healthy and succesfull life to make you feel postive about yourself because I don't think compromising is an option when you have 'Gender Dysphoria'.
Please feel free to correct me at point I may not know about, I hope you find this response helpful. I apologise if I sounded offensive.