I've been fighting with my fears and sense of self for a long time now, still am. I don't know when I'll learn who I am as a whole, I guess it's jus a continuous process.
As of now though this word autogynephilia is what strikes closest to home and also drives in so much more fear into whatever sense of self I had built
Autogynephilia means an amab who is sexually aroused by thinking of self as a woman. That's me and wherever I search online about this term now there is so much conflict and already being clueless now I'm thrown totally blind again.
A bit of background on me, I'm a 21 year old amab who was very sure I'm a trans woman, who is attracted to women. Now being a autogynephilic attracted to women. I'm at a loss
Should I transition, face stigma, be lesbian? Should I stay male, get a girlfriend, move on from this? Cuz wherever I see they say autogynephiles may not be satisfied with transition and I might not get a girl after transition.... But I don't know if I'll be fine staying a guy all the while either....
This post I hope brings me someone who can help me through this confusion and for my friends who are also as confused and desperate as me, I wish you luck