Slowly I feel like I am losing myself. @shahinaroze has been supporting me in the hospital psych ward but I don't seem to be getting better. Maybe I'll have to live with my present conditions which makes me question why ? Why and what could possibly be the reason for all this suffering? I have asked to be discharged soon but my suffering has barely reduced. I keep riding the rough waves and I can't think anything anymore. I am losing clarity and hope. I know all of you are willing to support me but I am alone with my own feelings. My own emotions are killing me. I don't know what anyone from outside can do.
