Unable to Express My feelings!

Evangeline

Hi Every One ,
I knew something was missing from my life since childhood but I couldn't figure out what it is. I'm not able to express my feelings, to be honest i don't feel any emotions at all. I have read that testosterone does block the emotions in some trans-women. But how much of this is true?

Megha

Evangeline one feels emotionless when he/she is very very upset or depressed since a long time

Evangeline

Megha yeah its sad. Actually I wanted to know does taking estrogen makes this emptiness go away. Can you help me with this?

Megha

Evangeline one cause of emptiness is feeling stuck in your life and feeling like you won't ever get happiness no matter what and somewhere it might be depression. You just need to move in the direction that makes you happy. You need to feel like things are getting better, for that you need to take right decisions. And sometimes emotionlessness and emptiness makes one stronger in decision making. And estrogen won't help, it might make condition worse, it'll just make you cry more but won't fill the void.

Yuvathi

Megha crying helps to recover fast from emotions and stress and depression, which in turn avoids health issues, so let's cry while emotional ??????,

Megha

Yuvathi no babe, you won't even feel like crying when you are emotionless and empty. And taking estrogen won't help with the emptiness. Laser sessions for facial hair removal are most important before hrt.

NandhiniAnand

Evangeline I've been on estrogen for about 3 months..(at last blood test my levels of both T and E were at post-menopausal women levels). And while my sensitivity to emotions is slightly higher, it's not a great big difference.. I believe estrogen alone will not change much... you probably want to see a therapist to discuss the source of such feelings and work on getting in touch with your feelings..

Evangeline

Yuvathi Hifi

Evangeline

Megha I read somewhere that having testosterone in the body causes the depression. I could be wrong though, What's your experience on HRT?

Evangeline

Hi NandhiniAnand Here's the source for my problem:
On each and every day every second I'm picturing myself as a women while presenting as Guy. I just want to sought at people to stop treating me as a guy but I can't. I'm keep failing to build close relationships with my friends because deep down I'm very scared that someday they all gonna hate me because I'm trans. I can't live happy as a guy and everyday is passing with such struggling.

Evangeline

Megha Well i would rather cry a lot than being a Zombie.

Megha

Evangeline not at all, estrogen is much more depressive with so much mood swings.

Megha

Evangeline that's the reason you feel like you won't ever be happy. If you want to transition you have to plan it in proper way. Taking estrogen for emotions is so foolish, Hrt is not food, it's a drug with serious consequences, and if you still wanna do it don't discuss it on a public forum, it might encourage others. Consult psychiatrist for your depression. Instead of taking estrogen, take laser sessions for facial hair removal, that'll make you a lot more happier.

Evangeline

Megha thanks. I understood your concern. I wanted to know if taking estrogen will help me with this depression. I didn't thought it would encourage others to self medicate.