yes dear exactly. Now at least you know what transgender means.
Next thing, have you heard of hrt? You realise you can't just go and get surgery right? You have to be on hrt for an year at least.. and if you get castration then you can't get srs...
There is a proper way to do this, and I don't know if hijra groups will tell you this proper way. You should relax and think with calm mind about your options.