Hey everyone!!
Hope you all are doing well.

Actually, I am new here, as I came to know of this website only a few days ago. I am really impressed by how all the people here are united so strong and trying to help each other. ( I am here seeking help too!)

Telling about myself, I am kind of shy, introverted, awkward af person, also a foodie, binge-watching TV shows.
As long as I can remember, I have always felt different about me from others. I was physically born a boy, but I haven't felt as such. I was flamboyant from the beginning, I liked to behave, walk and talk like a girl. I was attracted to feminine things and all. I sometimes felt like my feminine soul was being held and trapped in a prison of wrong body of a man. I always used to think very bad of myself, that why I am different and had suicidal thoughts once in a while. I didn't quite understand what was wrong with me.
There hasn't been a single day in my entire life in which I dream of being a girl and living happily! I even used to pray to God before going to sleep every night, that make me a girl overnight and dreamed of waking up as a girl. Silly me!
Every time I look into a mirror, I always wish to see the woman inside me, despite the male body. I had to put up an act all the time, to not being judged by the people around, for being my actual self.

I wouldn't say I was ridiculed very badly in school, but a little bit mocked at, for being a little feminine. I was good enough at studies, so that kept me a little distracted from my thoughts. After I got into engineering, I was able to get to know well, gradually about the presence of different things like gay, bisexuality, transsexuals, etc,. ( Thanks to the internet!!) and how there is still stigma prevalent in the society. Later, I came to know that there are some other people around the world who feel trapped exactly like me and there is a term for it called 'gender identity disorder' (GID) which has been modified to 'Gender dysphoria'. Now, I am currently in final year of engineering and I am in a confused state of what is going to happen to me?

Hence, suggest me whatever you feel I should do.

Also, interested to make good friends here!